just listen

lady gaga is bomb. 

Howdy partners, it's me again. i mean who else would it be, this is my blog right?

But anyway -  today i found myself realizing some very interesting things. 
Why is it that people always try to project an image of themselves that is never totally truthful?
Why cant anyone be themselves these days? Has society fucked us all up so bad that we all want to be someone else? Think about it, isn't there someone in the world that you think about and you're like "man, i wish i had their life"?

The media talks everything up so much that we assume that others have better lives than the ones that we each live everyday, when in all reality, we're all the same(except some of us have more money than others)but we all go through the exact same issues. I mean even the happiest, richest people in the world wish they were someone else at one point or another. That's because it's normal to feel these things. We can never truly except and embrace the real us  with all that's going on in society today; how else would the world turn? How else would industries make money off of us if they didn't make us feel insecure about every little thing to the point that we feel that we have to change something? It's a shame what this word has come to. 

I always wish that I would've lived to see the 60s and 70s. Everyone seemed so free and peaceful,& so much has changed since then. It's unfortunate that we as human beings have these feelings and there's nothing we can do because its set up this way. We are programmed this way since birth-it's just sad that no one can see it when it's staring them right in the face. 

 I am going to conclude this entry now. I just had to get that out.  Until next time companions.

welcome to heartbreak

but why is kanye west the man like that again? wow. this song sends me in a zone. kanye west is about the only artist who can do that to me.

lately

How's it hanging guys? I haven't been on here in a while, but I'm back by popular demand. =] 

I am dedicating this blog to my good ol' pal vic since he loves these things oh so much; 

My life has been under some form of spiral effect lately - I feel like I'm on this cycle where I can't get off this track I been taking for two years; when I sit and really think about all things that go on in my life, I used to complain and argue about the exact same issues I have now. smh. It's quite a shame that I STILL can't find one person who I can sincerely trust and who can prove to me that the world isn't so fucked up - the world is supposed to be what you make of it though - isn't it?

whatever.

Oh yeah - I got some really interesting news the other day, I'm moving to California soon =] Yep, good ol' San Diego Cali.

I am pretty psyched about the whole idea too; I can finally get on the right track and do what I need to do for myself.  While in Jersey I see too many familiar faces which causes me to back away from all of my priorities and party like there's no tomorrow, and quite frankly, I'm tired of the whole bit. The only thing that I can say that I am going to miss is my immediate family and my girls - my true girls - you know who you are. 

It's probably going to take some time for me to transition into a cali girl and the whole idea of living somewhere so far from home makes me cringe. But I know that this is something I have to do for myself -  it can't be about anybody else, besides i'll always be a jersey girl at heart. 

 

I'm not sure how long I plan on living there, it could take years for me to get my life back together, but i'll visit and then there will always be trips to Cali. for the girls which will be awesome =] I'm a little scared of change, but I am sure I'll be fine. 

& as for family issues, I am still having the worst relationship possible with my mother and my stepfather is still a very hard cocaine addict/pervert. This also fuels to the fire that's raging inside of me and pushing me even further away from them -  hence the whole moving situation to California. I honestly can't wait until I leave. I have like two more months and then it's adios amigos. I can just feel that I will be such a happier person - a much more sane person at that. 

But yeah I hope you enjoyed this readers; gimme some feedback too. thankies. 

I see you KID VIC. lols; love you bunches -  forreal though. 

Ciao! 

x o x o 

- Iris