I am dedicating this blog to my good ol' pal vic since he loves these things oh so much;
My life has been under some form of spiral effect lately - I feel like I'm on this cycle where I can't get off this track I been taking for two years; when I sit and really think about all things that go on in my life, I used to complain and argue about the exact same issues I have now. smh. It's quite a shame that I STILL can't find one person who I can sincerely trust and who can prove to me that the world isn't so fucked up - the world is supposed to be what you make of it though - isn't it?
whatever.
Oh yeah - I got some really interesting news the other day, I'm moving to California soon =] Yep, good ol' San Diego Cali.
I am pretty psyched about the whole idea too; I can finally get on the right track and do what I need to do for myself. While in Jersey I see too many familiar faces which causes me to back away from all of my priorities and party like there's no tomorrow, and quite frankly, I'm tired of the whole bit. The only thing that I can say that I am going to miss is my immediate family and my girls - my true girls - you know who you are.
It's probably going to take some time for me to transition into a cali girl and the whole idea of living somewhere so far from home makes me cringe. But I know that this is something I have to do for myself - it can't be about anybody else, besides i'll always be a jersey girl at heart.
I'm not sure how long I plan on living there, it could take years for me to get my life back together, but i'll visit and then there will always be trips to Cali. for the girls which will be awesome =] I'm a little scared of change, but I am sure I'll be fine.
& as for family issues, I am still having the worst relationship possible with my mother and my stepfather is still a very hard cocaine addict/pervert. This also fuels to the fire that's raging inside of me and pushing me even further away from them - hence the whole moving situation to California. I honestly can't wait until I leave. I have like two more months and then it's adios amigos. I can just feel that I will be such a happier person - a much more sane person at that.
But yeah I hope you enjoyed this readers; gimme some feedback too. thankies.
I see you KID VIC. lols; love you bunches - forreal though.
Ciao!
x o x o
- Iris
well hey now!iris is coming to cali!it's janet(jimmy)your myspace buddy :) good luck with the move..i know how hard it is to move from one coast to another..it's normal to be scared! but anyways,write more blogs yo! <3
ReplyDeleteYou'll be fine once you settle in. And if it's for the best I say go for it, esp if its the best for YOU!!! cause when it comes down to it, you have to take the best care of yourself...!!!
ReplyDeleteim happy that youre leaving for the reasons you stated. im pleased to read that youre picking up the pieces to things that are broken in your life and gluing them back together...or not.
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